Moving Past Melancholy

Written by: Shenise Gatson

I wish I could say that I’m a woman that has it all together.

Someone that has all my T’s crossed and I’s dotted.

However, that is not the case.

There are some days where I am on point, then there are other days that….I scramble out of bed, realizing I have overslept for work. The kitchen is dirty. The laundry has not yet been folded. There’s a stack of mail piling up on my kitchen table, threatening to topple to the floor. I don’t feel like cooking and dinner is “whatever I feel like eating” (which is something delicious and unhealthy)! Yum!

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And there are many days where…it’s been a ROUGH day and a nice chocolate piece of cake solves the problem. And other days where binge watching Hulu TV keeps me satisfied and my mind occupied. There are some days where talking with my husband and playing with my baby girl helps me feel like the sun is shining when it’s raining.

Yesterday was one of my off days where the weather matched my mood.

It was pouring, raining, and flooding in some areas of Houston. I felt exactly like the rain sliding down car windows.

Life was, yet again, throwing me a curve ball and slapping me in the face.

Just obstacle after obstacle. When I got home yesterday evening, I felt stressed and worried by life circumstances. I couldn’t seem to relax and even my daughter’s sweet and playful gestures couldn’t get me out of my mental slump. I didn’t feel like talking about it. I just felt like listening to some slow music and eating comfort foods.

What do I do when my mood matches this “melancholy moment”?

I write. Through writing…

I encourage myself. And hopefully someone else along the way.

So I want to say to anyone who is having a “melancholy moment” today…….

This is for you….and me too.

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This is for someone out there who is feeling tired.

To the woman who is tired of being tired.

To the person who is battling an issue that no one knows about.

To the woman who feels like no one cares.

To the individual who keeps their issues to themselves for fear of no one understanding.

To the woman who has shared her thoughts with people she thought would understand. And they didn’t.

To the woman who feels like she is being taken advantage of.

To someone who is feels like they’re going above and beyond, but is still unrecognized and unappreciated.

To the person feeling misunderstand. Criticized. Or ashamed.

To the person who recently learned that you can’t trust everyone.And that not everyone has your best interests in mind.

To the woman who has had to let someone go.

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To someone out there who is grieving the loss of a loved one.

To the person in love with someone who does not love them back.

To the individual who keeps taking two steps forward, and feels like life keeps knocking them ten steps back.

To the person trying to reach their dreams, but obstacles seem to keep blocking their path.

To the woman who feels like she has lost so many things and keeps losing.To the person feeling….

Drained. Defeated. Damaged. Broken. Hopeless.

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                                                                   Don’t give up.

Don’t stop moving forward.

Put one foot in front of the other.

Keep walking. Keep crawling, if that’s all you can do.

Stay in motion.

Even if it means you have to smile through the tears. Through the pain.

           If no one told you today….      

YOU ARE VALUABLE.

YOU MATTER.

   YOU MAKE A  DIFFERENCE.

But most importantly…..

YOU ARE LOVED.

    This will one day get better.

This moment will pass.

Just like the rain and flooding that came through Houston yesterday.

Today, the sun is shining brightly and there is no chance of rain.

                                                              We will get through this.

          Copyright @ 2018 Shenise Gatson

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2 thoughts on “Moving Past Melancholy

  1. happydyinggirl says:

    Thank you for writing that. I don’t know if I can do it, and I don’t know how to do it, move past my own ‘melancholy day’ but I am one of those people and I understand you.

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    • Shenise says:

      Thank you for reading and supporting!! I have some good days and low days too, and I know it can be challenging. During those days, I just try to take things one day at a time. For me, writing or sharing my feelings with a trusted person helps me cope. You can do it…just be patient with yourself. Thank you again for reading!

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